JUST when I thought I was getting back into the saddle…website back up and running…They Came in Peace foley ready to roll…the Oh Well, Whatever, Nevermind foley being rebuilt to remove 20 year old legacy formatting fuck-fuck code and remove the image that queerphobes at Draft 2 Digital got their clam in a jam over…making progress with Youth Protection about getting to be part of my children’s lives again…knee surgeon clears me to go back to the gym…I go back to the gym…one week later I have a cold.
BOOM! Crash out, sleep all day, sleep all night, spend 20 minutes at a time clearing my chest, misery, medicine, mucous…It’s a long, hard road out of Hell.
So…I know I had originally intended to offer a pseudo University-level course on writing and self-publishing and shit, but here’s thing about writing: It’s not a marathon, it’s several thousand sprints interspersed with periods of varying inactivity; my record is 6 months, but that was because of my whole knee thing and the fact that even my Host doesn’t know what in the actual fuck happened to my website.
Perhaps that IS the lesson: A lot of side-questing is involved in writing. And, yes; I mean side-questing like in RPGs. INVARIABLY something happens and you have to put things down: crises, fun times, distractions, housework, life…random strangers asking you to retrieve stolen cast-iron skillets…unless you’re Stephen King in the 1980’s fueled by blow and madness, you’re not likely to be churning out more than one draft of one book a year, let alone spending your days in front of the keyboard, and if you are, unless you’re Stephen King in the 1980’s fueled by blow and madness, those are not going to be fantastic.
It’s one of the reasons I like to shit on NaNoWriMo, or National November Writing Month. It is impossible to write a good first draft; it is therefore likewise impossible to write an entire novel in a month, expect it to be good, and to expect it to be respected. In fact, the organization that originally ran the project finally went under, but the meme survives among mediocre social media microblogging fanatics and wannabe writers who never try to do anything beyond fanfic with very graphic, very poorly written sex scenes.
That is NOT to say, however, that I am opposed to fanfic. A lot of times when I’m stuck, I’ll start or continue work on a project I’ve written, while playing in someone else’s sandbox. I’ve written The Matrix fanfic, Batman fanfic, Star Trek AND Star Wars fanfic. The reason you won’t see my work up on AO3 is because these are not intended for anyone else’s eyes but mine; sometimes playing in another sandbox is just what I need to get my creative juices flowing passed the clogged artery of writer’s block. Hell, I’ve even come up with concepts, characters and whole scenes in fanfic that I later turned into parts of actual stuff I wrote to be read. Stay creative when you’re not writing. If fanfic’s not your thing, pick up an instrument, learn to paint, start collecting action figures or physical media…have an expressive outlet besides writing available.
Basically, ou write when you write; when the inspiration hits, when you have extra time, when you don’t know what else to do, when you know you should be doing something else. You let writing interrupt your life as much as life interrupts your writing; that’s just how it works.
If you DO have the means and ability to sit at a keyboard for 10 to 12 hours a day, every day, and you are turning out good shit, fantastic. You are, nevertheless, the exception rather than the rule in my experience, but, hey, you can do it so good on you.
For the rest of us, the key is to not panic if you go a long stretch without making progress. Just thinking about writing is writing, so you’re good, even if you’re not planted in front of a keyboard consuming high doses of caffeine.
And if you get that breakthrough but can’t get to writing? Make a note; even if it’s a voice memo on your phone. It’ll be even better by the time you get to writing, because that part of your imagination that’s always running is going to be working with that idea in the background.
Okay, well…I guess that’s it for this entry. Stay tuned, I will be posting on a more regular schedule, now.
Author: SteveKarmazenuk
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I Habe a Code
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We Now Return You to Our Regularly Scheduled Weblog, Currently in Progress
Okay, bear with me; there’s a lot of information to get through, since the blog’s been frozen for 5 months.
So, in December I finally got the court judgement – The exceptional thing about that is just how much time the judge took, in rendering their decision.
It meant she had to take my arguments about being mistreated, about the discrimination I was facing, and how the DPJ weaponized my mental illness against me.
The judgement actually erased entire paragraphs of the DPJ’s charged testimony against me, and established a mechanism to allow me to return to some degree of normalcy with my children.
I’ve been back in touch with the DPJ since then, with the help of a social worker of my own to bear witness, keep them honest. Progress is…well, umm…progressing:
So far, Leia is very much interested in reaching out to me, and I her, while Obi-Wan and Luke remain on the fence, which is their right after everything that’s happened. The DPJ is setting the stage for me to reach out to my kids, and, hopefully, soon be reunited with them.
Also in December, I slipped and fell on a Montreal sidewalk, and severed the quadriceps tendon from my left knee. I’ve been spending much of that time since then recovering from emergency knee surgery and trying to figure out why my blog had suddenly decided it was locking itself down.
Thanks to the dedicated help of Tom from Darner Media, I’ve gotten the blog back up and running…ish. WordPress is problematic and user hostile, and I’m Generation-X so we like our tech to hand everything to us on a silver platter.
As I will soon be posting, I had to take down my book Oh Well, Whatever, Nevermind, because under the current American regime, self-publishing presses are afraid to publish “explicit content;” in this case, the image of one man getting sucked off by the other. It is interesting to note that I was deplatformed from Apple, Kindle, Kobo, everywhere, really, because of that image.
An image of lesbian sex, and an image of male-on-female sex, also in the gallery as part of the book, were not highlighted for removal.
Queerphobia in American Publishing; whoda thunk?
I’ve also finished work on They Came in Peace, paid off the cover art, and I’m now planning strategy for its soft relaunch, later this summer (See: Douglas Adams, re: Deadlines.)
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I Have No Answer to Your General Except from the Mouths of My Cannons
The title of this blog post comes from Louis de Buade, Compte de Frontenac et de Palluau, governor of the Quebec region of the New France colony in the late 1600’s; He famously made that statement during one of the many incessant France VS Great Britain proxy-wars of French Quebec history, when told by a messenger from Sir William Phips, Commander of British Naval Forces surrounding the besieged city, that Phips was demanding Frontenac’s surrender, and the messenger requested his answer.
You don’t need the full historical context of the 1690 Siege of Quebec by British Colonial forces trying to seize territory from French Colonial forces; all you need to know is the overconfident British general was humiliated, and that quote by le Compte de Frontenac et de Palluau became a statement of defiance quite literally embedded into both “Quebecois” and Canadian culture and history.
But, what’s all this about? Why this quote? Why now? What’s going on?
Sit back and let me tell you.
This afternoon a bailiff dropped the following cease and desist letter, which was NOT in my Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms- guaranteed Official Language of Choice, namely English, but instead was in Quebec “French;” a bastardized patois of French, Algonquin, Mohawk, Mi’kmaq, Scot’s Gaelic and English, called Joual.
SIDEBAR
Quebec “French” is the LAUGHINGSTOCK of the Francophonie, the regroupment of French-speaking countries and Canadian provincial territories. MOST ESPECIALLY in France: Joual is the language of the low class, the criminals, prostitutes and paupers sent over by France to colonize land they had no hope of holding onto without the help of the very First Nations people they eventually fucked over.
Never mind that “French” Quebec only exists today because of the mercy of Carleton, the First Baron of Dorchester and British Governor of Quebec after the conquest and obliteration of New France. Baron Dorchester convinced the British Crown to let the settlers of “New France” keep their language and culture. Perhaps one of the most egregious cases of averted genocide in history.
The Quebec identity is built around it being a fragile bastion of French: French Quebec likes to claim their culture is under attack, under threat from outside forces of THE ENGLISH MENACE, not to mention Muslims, BIPoC, Sikhs, Hindus and literally anyone who is not a White French Quebecer. The thing is, if your culture cannot exist without the erasure of other cultures, then your culture is one of bigotry and intolerance.
SIDEBAR ENDS. WE NOW RETURN YOU TO YOUR REGULARLY SCHEDULED WEBLOG POST
Right now, I am here to focus on another ongoing attempts by the DPJ under directrix Marianne Sylvain to violate my rights under Section 2(b) of the Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms and Section 47 of the Quebec Charter of Rights and Freedoms, and to report on that malfeasance.
Translated from that French sublanguage of Joual, is the text of the vile, rights-abusingharassmentletter that I mentioned I received today, and below that, is first my personal reaction to that letter, and then my on reply, from the mouth of MY Cannons: the words I wield as weapons.Montreal, November 13th 2025
UNDER ALL RESERVATIONS
BY BAILIFF
Mister Steven Karmazenuk,
By virtue of the Loi sur la protection de la jeunesse (L.R.Q. c. P-34.1,) all information collected in the case are under application of the law confidential.
It was brought to our attention that you have published on a weblog information concerning the procedures at Youth Protection and the names of certain caseworkers. Despite your intention of protecting the identity of your children, as your name is published, it is easy to deduce the identity of your children.
“9.2 The children and their parents have the right that the information concerning them and permitting their identification, when they are grouped in the cadre of the application of the present law are to be treated in a confidential matter, and can only be divulged in conforming to the law and its dispositions
2022, c. 11, a. 11.
“9.3 In the cadre of the present law, no one can publish or transmit information that could permit the identification of a child, children or their parents unless the Tribunal orders or authorized conditions determined that said publication or diffusion are necessary to apply the present law or a ruling edict in virtue of the above. In noncompliance, the Tribunal can, in particular cases, forbid or restrain, according to conditions fixed by the Tribunal, the publication or transmission of information relative to a tribunal audience
“134. No one can: (g) knowingly or deliberately provide confidential information contrary to the dispositions of the present law, or the dispositions of the Civil Code relating to the confidentiality to adoption dossiers.
“135. Anyone in violation of the first paragraph of Article 3 or omit, refuse or neglect to protect a child in their care or commits acts that compromise the security or development of a child is committing an infraction and can be fined between $625 and $5000.”
Equally, the posts contain the names of caseworkers, contravening clauses of the Charter of Rights and Liberty and the Civil Code. Civil and criminal recourse could be applied.
As such, you are formally notified that you are to remove all publication on your weblog, or to remove any names appearing within, including your own.
BE ADVISED that failure to comply with this request the Direction of Youth Protection has judicial recourse against you.
PLEASE ACT ACCORDINGLY
Contentious cases for the CIUSS Centre-Sud-de-L’Ile-de-Montreal
(signed)
Me Marie-Aimee Beaulac, lawer.This letter is nothing but a sad and pathetic attempt to intimidate me with legal jargon; it doesn’t hold a fucking DROP of water. Based on my previous VERY long post about Section 2 (b) of the Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms and the post with the big red text block disclaimer about how my Canadian Charter rights supersede any attempt by the Direction de Protection de Jeunesse to silence me, as I am expressing myself via journalistic reporting on the malfeasance and malignant anti-male culture at the Direction de Protection de la Jeunesse.
I don’t have to remove SHIT, because I’m neither violating section 134 or 135, and any imagined liability I might have is nullified by language that puts the onus on the custodial parent.
And the fines they’re threatening to impose are CARTOONISHLY LOWER than what it would cost them to litigate this – in small claims court, because nothing under $15 000 will be accepted in civil court, which would make it even more expensive to prosecute. A conservative estimate is that the cost per Quebec government-owned lawyer working on such a case upwards of $10 000 to $12 000 to collect on a $5000 dollar fine; and that’s a conservative estimate of the minimum amount it would cost these fools to come at me.
As to threatening me with yet another malicious prosecution in criminal court? I’d rather go to jail than let the Radfem fascists of the DPJ silence me.
I’ve already stated, repeatedly, that I will die on this hill; this is about my right to FREE EXPRESSION according to the Canadian Charter of Human Rights and Freedoms; I am an author and a free speech absolutist: I AM WILLING TO GO TO JAIL IN ORDER TO MAKE THIS INTO A CHARTER CASE.
As promised, I reply below, from the mouth of my cannons:Montreal, CANADA, November 19th, 2025 CE
UNDER ALL RESERVATIONS, EXCEPT DURING OFF-SEASON AND HOLIDAY PERIODS (TERMS AND CONDITIONS MAY APPLY. OFFER VOID IN WISCONSIN AND ILLINOIS)
DELIVERED BY PUBLIC WEBLOG POST
Me Marie-Anne Beaulac, (lawyer) et al,
I wholeheartedly and without concession reject your attempt to intimidate me into silence with unsubstantiated claims, accusations and threats of legal action. Regarding any alleged violation of my children’s rights to privacy with regards to specific information in my file, there has never been, nor will there ever be any such violation on my weblog:
1 – AT ABSOLUTELY NO TIME in any of the posts on this weblog do I violate my children’s right to privacy. The claim that their names are easily deduced because my “unique” name appears on the weblog is ridiculous: WHO WOULD EVEN WANT TO GO TO ALL THAT TROUBLE? There are already published books in private hands with my children’s names in the dedication; are you going to order me to take these books back from their legal owners and change the dedication? Good luck.
Section 134 DOES NOT APPLY:
I absolutely NEVER divulge on this weblog, or any other public forum where I am legally allowed to discuss my grievance with the DPJ, ANY specific private information that would be in any way, shape or form discoverable to anyone without pre-existing personal, familiar knowledge of my children, or or access to my children’s files. I DON’T EVEN HAVE ACCESS TO THEIR FILES, DESPITE MY RIGHT TO HAVE ACCESS TO THEM; WHICH IS PART OF THE FUCKING PROBLEM.
Section 135 DOES NOT APPLY:
I am not the custodial parent, upon whom the sole burden of keeping the children’s privacy is explicitly spelled out by its wording.
Especially since you’d be coming for my rights under Section 2(b) of the Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms, which absolutely overrides any Quebec law to the contrary, I’d like to know: do you really wanna make this into a Charter case?
On my weblog I am free to and so I do talk about how much I miss my children, how much I love them; I discuss how I hope I can reestablish ties with my daughter, and how I hope that I can earn back my sons’ respect, trust, and love, regardless of whether I once more have the privilege to become a part of their lives.
At no time do I go into any details about the ongoing case, other than to demonstrate acts of deliberate malfeasance and violations of my rights under Section 47 of the Quebec Charter of Rights and Freedoms by the Direction de Protection de Jeunesse in general, and Marianne Sylvain and Helene Savard in particular.
I NEVER REVEAL MY CHILDREN’S NAMES, Despite the inalienable fact that their names are already part of the public record through birth registration, baptismal certificates, and legal and school records; it is neither my fault nor my responsibility that the government of Quebec has failed in their duty to protect from public access any and all personal revelatory information about Quebec’s minors; anyone with a moderate level of computer and internet savvy would be able to discover the names of any children in Quebec, whether or not they even know someone had children, but did not know the identities of those children. Identity theft has also always been a thing. Would you prohibit all parents from even discussing the fact that they have children? How dare you demand that of me! Am I supposed to publicly deny being a father?
WOULD YOU HAVE ME DENY MY CHILDREN?
Subsequently, highlighting that MY NAME appears in both the domain name and name of MY WEBLOG is completely irrelevant: I am an author; I publish under my own name. I am re-releasing my novel, They Came in Peace, in 2026. I cannot be compelled do so under a nom de plume, nor not name the children whom I love in the book’s dedication, nor would there be any legal justification to block the book’s publication because of the Dedication Page.
And after nearly three decades of owning the karmazenuk.com domain name and using the weblog to talk about my writing, if irregularly, throughout that time, and also using the domain for all email communication via the email handle “steve@karmazenuk.com,” FOR THE PURPOSES OF PERSONAL BRANDING as well as personal email communication, demanding that I change it or take it would not only be unreasonable, it would put an unfair burden on me, as I continue to legitimately pursue the republication of my novel, They Came in Peace, and my ongoing investigation into the violation of and fight for my rights under Section 47 of the Quebec Charter of Rights and Freedoms.
And implying that my distinct name makes their “discovery” all the more likely borders on absolute racism; is my name not assez quebecois for you?
The fact is that I am a father of three children, and the names of those children are already in the public domain; I sold numerous copies of They Came in Peace with that dedication when the book was originally in circulation, from 2020 to 2024; well before and after the DPJ opened a file and elected to weaponize access to my children against me.
2 – On my weblog, I only discuss matters related to the ongoing violations of my rights as a Quebec Citizen under Section 47 of the Quebec Charter of Rights and Freedoms, which guarantees, “Every person has a right to full and equal recognition and exercise of their human rights and freedoms, without distinction, exclusion or preference, and to fair and reasonable treatment by the agencies of the State and members of the personnel.” and I could unequivocally demonstrate that deliberate malfeasance toward me, IF I WAS ALLOWED ACCESS TO MY FILE AND CASE NOTES, AS IS MY RIGHT UNDER YOUR AFOREMENTIONED SECTION OF THE LOI SUR LA PROTECTION DE LA JEUNESSE ET BLABLABLA. And I quote:“9.2 The children and their parents have the right that the information concerning them and permitting their identification, when they are grouped in the cadre of the application of the present law are to be treated in a confidential matter, and can only be divulged in conforming to the law and its dispositions
2022, c. 11, a. 11.“Well, guess what, sunshine? AT NO TIME DO I VIOLATE THE CONFIDENTIALITY OF MY CHILDREN ON THIS WEBLOG OR IN ANY OF ITS POSTS. I AM IN NO WAY IN NONCOMPLIANCE OF THE LAW AND ITS DISPOSITIONS.
I am reporting, as I have previously and repeatedly stated, on the deliberate malfeasance that is taking place under the direction Helene Savard and her lackey Marianne Sylvain, who are currently primarily responsible for my deliberate and malignant mistreatment despite the rights and freedoms afforded to me under Section 2 (b) of the Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms, and Section 47 of the Quebec Charter of Rights and Freedoms.
I will remind you that under Section 2 (b) even slander is considered protected speech: (R. v. Keegstra, [1990] 3 S.C.R. 697; Thomson Newspapers Co. v. Canada (A.G.), [1998] 1 S.C.R. 877; Harper v. Canada (Attorney General), [2004] 1 S.C.R. 827).
And under Section 47 of the Quebec Charter of Rights and Freedoms, I should not have been treated in the biased and unethical manner as Madame Savard directed, at all: Nothing I said to any DPJ caseworker was given any credence, and they took what I told them in confidence deliberately out of context to defame my character, and have taken actions and made statements designed to alienate me from my children. Likewise, I should have never been subjected to the emotional blackmail they used against me.
Likewise, the filings made by the DPJ to Family Court contain DEMONSTRABLE FALSEHOODS that should at the very least resort in Bar hearings about legal misconduct, including fabricating demonstrable lies about how my psychiatric health issues affect me.
The DPJ has DISCRIMINATED AGAINST ME ON THE BASIS OF MY GENDER AND BOTH MY PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ILLNESS, which once again contravenes my rights under both the Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms and the Quebec Charter of Rights and Freedoms
As such, BE FORMALLY ADVISED of what I have already told a sitting judge in Family court: I will not be silenced, and if you want me to take down my blog, you’d best slap me in irons, as I am willing to go to jail and fight for and protect my Quebec and Canadian Charter rights.
BE LIKEWISE FORMALLY ADVISED that boilerplate legal mumbo-jumbo that holds absolutely no water in the given circumstance will not intimidate me, nor will the threat of fines or even jail time; I am no longer going to allow the DPJ or any of its co-conspirators continue to defame me with impunity, or to attempt to intimidate me into silence. I am going to take control of the narrative about who I am; about what kind of person I am; about what I have survived.
YOU HAD BEST ACT ACCORDINGLY:
I have a legitimate case against you right now to take to the Bar Association, for:
-Acting with dishonesty and a lack of integrity by abusing the law to harass, intimidate, and mislead me about my rights under the Law.
-Threatening litigation to intimidate me when there is no legitimate legal claim.
Relevant sections, since you don’t seem up to date on the Code of Professional Conduct of Lawyers (Barreau du Quebec) include:
3.02 – A lawyer must not misuse the legal system to intimidate, pressure or coerce.
3.03 – A lawyer must not pursue or threaten legal proceedings without a reasonable basis.
I AM STANDING FIRM IN MY RESOLVE AND WILL NOT COOPERATE WITH YOU REGARDING THIS MATTER.
(signed with a big, fat middle finger)
Doctor of Writing Lord Steven Karmazenuk, author, journalist, free speech absolutistStay tuned, dear readers and followers! Because whatever happens next, THIS IS WHERE YOU WILL HEAR ABOUT IT.
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The DPJ Took My Babies Away Part Three: Lies, Outrage, and the Outrageous Liars Behind Them
PLEASE BE AWARE OF THE FOLLOWING DISCLAIMER:
I am exercising my right to free expression under the Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms, otherwise known as Section 2(b) of the Charter, in order to report with journalistic intent to expose the discrimination, deliberate mistreatment of, and repeated indignities visited upon me by the Direction de Protection de la Jeunesse du Quebec.
My Freedom of Expression in this case, in particular detailing both the indignities I have suffered and naming the public officials responsible for this injustice are recognized as protected speech according to the following provisions under Canadian Charter Law:
The protection of freedom of expression is premised upon fundamental principles and values that promote the search for and attainment of truth, participation in social and political decision-making and the opportunity for individual self-fulfillment through expression (Irwin Toy Ltd. v. Quebec (Attorney General), [1989] 1 S.C.R. 927 at page 976; Ford v. Quebec, [1988] 2 S.C.R. 712 at pages 765-766)
The Supreme Court has adopted the following three-part test for analyzing section 2(b): 1) Does the activity in question have expressive content, thereby bringing it within section 2(b) protection?; 2) Does the method or location of this expression remove that protection?; and 3) If the expression is protected by section 2(b), does the government action in question infringe that protection, either in purpose or effect? (Canadian Broadcasting Corp. v. Canada (Attorney General), 2011 SCC 2 (“Canadian Broadcasting Corp.”); Montréal (City) v. 2952-1366 Québec Inc., [2005] 3 S.C.R. 141; Irwin Toy Ltd., supra.)
Expression protected by section 2(b) has been defined as “any activity or communication that conveys or attempts to convey meaning” (Thomson Newspapers Co., supra; Irwin Toy Ltd., supra). The courts have applied the principle of content neutrality in defining the scope of section 2(b), such that the content of expression, no matter how offensive, unpopular or disturbing, cannot deprive it of section 2(b) protection (Keegstra, supra). Being content-neutral, the Charter also protects the expression of both truths and falsehoods (Canada (Attorney General) v. JTI-Macdonald Corp., [2007] 2 S.C.R. 610 at paragraph 60; R. v. Zundel, [1992] 2 S.C.R. 731 at paragraph 36; R. v. Lucas, [1998] 1 S.C.R. 439 at paragraph 25)
It is not necessary that an expression be received and subjectively understood for it to be protected expression under section 2(b) (Weisfeld (F.C.A.), supra; R. v. A.N. Koskolos Realty Ltd., (1995), 141 N.S.R. (2d) 309 (N.S.Prov.Ct.)).
The Supreme Court has stated that the method or location of the conveyance of a message will be excluded from 2(b) protection if this method or location conflicts with the values underlying the provision, namely: self-fulfillment, democratic discourse and truth finding (Canadian Broadcasting Corp., supra at paragraph 37; Montreal (City), supra at paragraph 72). In practice, however, this test is usually just applied to an analysis of the location of expression; the method of expression is generally considered to be within section 2(b) protection unless it takes the form of violence or threats of violence.
In other respects, the form or medium used to convey a message is generally considered part and parcel of the message and included within section 2(b) protection (Weisfeld (F.C.A.), supra).
In Canadian Broadcasting Corp, supra, the court added that analysis of the second factor should focus on the essential expressive activity as opposed to the “excesses” that would be incidental to this activity. In that particular case, the essential expressive activity, a journalist’s ability to gather news at a courthouse to inform the public about court proceedings, was held to engage section 2(b), despite the incidental excesses of this expression (“…crowds, pushing and shoving, and pursuing possible subjects in order to interview, film or photograph them…”) (paragraphs 43, 45).
Where the purpose of a government action is to restrict the content of expression, to control access to a certain message, or to limit the ability of a person who attempts to convey a message to express themselves, that purpose will infringe section 2(b) (Irwin Toy Ltd., supra; Keegstra, supra).
I was hoping to wait until I had the Judge’s decision before having to post about the bullshittery that the Direction de Protection de la Jeunesse du Quebec subjects me to.
But now, well, I found out that there is quite literally no fucking end to their deliberate sabotage. As I am composing this as an autobiographical and journalistic expose on malfeasance at the DPJ, I am released from the requirement to withhold the names of the people whom I am accusing of said same malfeasance.
Subsequently the only names and absolute right to privacy that I am required to protect are those of my children, who for the sake of their protection and privacy were designated prior in this weblog by the pseudonyms “Obi-Wan,” “Leia,” and “Luke.”
Should I be required to adopt further measures to protect my children’s identities, I will do so.
Luckily, the information I will be discussing here is tangential to my alienation from my children, and focused more on my rights as a “client” of the DPJ, though their regional mother organization, the CIUSS DU CENTRE-SUD-DE-L’ILE-DE-MONTREAL, out of their Sherbrooke Street East St. office.
Now, do you all remember back when I filed my request with Youth Protection to see my file? Well it turns out that the director of Youth Protection services for my region, Madame Helene Savard, well, her or her lackey Mariane Sylvain, elected to give me THE WRONG ADDRESS TO WHICH TO SEND MY REQUEST FOR ACCESS TO MY FILE, before waiting exactly twenty-ONE business days (One business day more than they’re legally allowed) to mail me a denial claiming that me having access to my own case file with the DPJ would somehow violate the rights of privacy of my children.
Savard knew that I intended to escalate to the Commission d’Acces a l’Information du Quebec the instant they were in noncompliance of my request, and she hoped that I would subsequently be tied up with the CAI bureaucratic machinery for another year.
But the Commission d’Acces a l’Information du Quebec, through General Secretary Nadine Jobin informed me that I had not sent the request for access properly to the DPJ to begin with, which meant they were unable to process it and subsequently closing the file. I phoned their general number here in Montreal to get clarification about why my request had been rejected. They advised me that the address I had been given, on De Louvain street, was not recognized as a legitimate place to send my initial access for my file request. I was then advised to resubmit my request to see my dossier with the DPJ to the attention of one Dr Daniel Brendon Murphy, whose name had been heretofore unknown to me. They also advised me that, despite the fact that a managerial level social worker would not mistakenly send someone the incorrect address to file a request to access their DPJ file, there was no legal action that could be taken against them, in spite of the evident malfeasance and deliberate sabotage.
IN THE INTERESTS OF READERS OF THE ABOVE-MENTIONED WEBLOG POST, PLEASE NOTE THAT IF YOU WISH TO EXERCISE YOUR RIGHT TO SEE YOUR OWN FILE WITH THE DPJ, YOU MUST SEND A WRITTEN AND HAND SIGNED FORMAL REQUEST FOR INFORMATION, INCLUDING THE NAME(S) AND BIRTHDATE(S) OF THE CHILD(REN) IN QUESTION. YOU MUST INCLUDE WITH THIS WRITTEN REQUEST A FULL-COLOR COPY OF YOUR PHOTO ID
THIS INFORMATION MUST BE SENT TO THE ATTENTION OF THE AFOREMENTIONED DR. MURPHY BY MAIL, PREFERABLY REGISTERED LETTER, TO:
1500 RUE SHERBROOKE E.
PAVILLION DESCHAMPS, PORTE F-113
MONTREAL, QC, CANADA H2L 4M1.
Once again, the purpose of providing you with this address is to allow you to file your access to your DPJ file requests properly.
DO NOT send your request by email! DO NOT send your request by fax!
The Commission a l’Access de l’Information du Quebec will ONLY accept requests for appeal a DPJ refusal that was originally sent to the above address.
As I said, Madame Savard gave me an address on De Louvain Street in Montreal, which the CAI says is not valid, and therefore, I must start the process over again.
But before I do that, I wish to state that Madame Savard’s actions, whether done through her lackey Madame Sylvain or not, constitute a direct violation of Section 47 of the Quebec Charter of Human Rights and Freedoms: “Every person has a right, in full equality, to fair and reasonable treatment by the agencies of the State and by the members of their personnel.“
The address that Mme Savard sent me by email was for a DPJ office on De Louvain street, not the correct office on Sherbrooke street. And there is no way in hell someone of her position and authority would accidentally send the incorrect address to request access to their DPJ dossier to someone who was asking for it.
Now, as to why I wanted access to my file? Well, for starters, at the very beginning of the DPJ’s interference with my family, detailed in a previous blog entry, I told them that my ex-wife had been emotionally and psychologically abusive to me, and she would turn the case workers against me. They ignored me; they believed my ex-wife, and not me.
Why are you so shocked that I behave as a monster, when all you do is treat me so monstrously?
-A quote usually accredited to a Roman slave on trial for murdering their master, or to demons during exorcisms. (Latin: Cur adeo stupes ut monstrum sim, cum nihil egeris quam me monstri facias?)
They ignored/discriminated against my fragile emotional state, my physical disabilities (cyclical vomiting syndrome that I mentioned from the beginning, arthrosciatica and a bum knee as my treacherous body continued to do me dirty) either disbelieving me wholeheartedly, or using the issues to put so much pressure on me that they actually triggered episodes of panic, and/or cyclical vomiting syndrome so often that eventually I broke, snapped, and was arrested for rage-texting the social worker who pressured me into a nervous breakdown.
This past summer, they advised me that they were going to petition the court to close the DPJ file and grant sole and exclusive parental rights to my ex-wife, which would mean I would most definitely never see my children before they were adults.
So, I told them that I was done; I would no longer cooperate with them in any way, shape or form. That if I had to I would seek my daughter out to tell her my truth, my side of this godforsaken story. In response they put a BOLO out on me with the very cops that have it in for me.
In parting over the news that they were deleting my rights to be a father, I also told them:Go take a long walk off a short pier, go play in traffic, go wave a red flag in front of a Brahman bull, eat a bag of dicks, fist-fuck a hornet’s nest, French-kiss an electric light socket, stick your head in a woodchipper, eat a Tide Pod while doing the Cinnamon Challenge, bungie jump into a sarlaac pit, cover yourself in moose piss and stand in the woods naked, eat shit and die, and – and I mean this most sincerely – go fuck yourself.
Then one day later on this past summer, on a rare day that I was in a particularly good mood, feeling good about myself and life in general, when either Savard or Sylvain or for all I know some other third party angry Quebecoise phoned, and emotionally blackmailed me into cooperating with them.
Now, my day was about to be ruined as she/they/them angrily accused me of threats, harassment, crude language, and then telling me that my daughter, Leia, was upset because I had quit cooperating with the DPJ (WHY did I quit cooperating? Because of what I said above, as well as the way they kept vilifying me, to the point they even lied in a family court deposition about my mental state, by cherry-picking what my psychiatrist in his psych evaluation wrote to paint me as a monster.)
So despite their “Don’t you want to see Leia again?” deliberate emotional blackmail admonishment, I had concerns. Namely, the very question I asked that they refused to answer, which led to me requesting my file to begin with.
I asked via the email quoted below that they answer a simple question, in writing (Bold and Italic done for the purposes of this article:)“Madam,
While I intend to discuss whether to allow you to have access to my psychiatric records with my psychiatric physician, I must ask:
You have already demonstrated – in Family Court, before a sitting Judge – your willingness to lie or lie by omission about what is in the dossier. In fact, when I accused you of it, your audible gasp only confirmed what I’d read in the court transcript.
How am I to know – indeed, why would I even believe – that you will not once again selectively edit out anything that goes against your years-long narrative that I am an uncooperative villain acting in bad faith?
What guarantees can you afford me that you will truly look at this information without bias, when there is so much bias in the DPJ files against me, already?
I expect a prompt reply detailing exactly how and why I should trust you with this information. And do not attempt obfuscation; the fact that you’re still dishonest enough to not admit the things your organization did to undermine me still gives me little to no trust in you.
Likewise, I resent the emotional blackmail you are attempting by using Leia as a carrot in this situation.
If you were crawling any deeper in the mud you’d have to be taxonomized as an earthworm.
Good day to you.They refused to do answer the question via email, knowing the scope of the Power of the Written Word, in Quebec. They offered in reply to meet with me so that they could answer in person.
When I refused and insisted I wanted an answer to my question in writing, they decided to “answer” by quoting me the stock answer to the question Why does the DPJ want access to my psychiatric records, without even bothering to hide the fact that it was a copy-paste from a fucking brochure.
So, that’s when I asked Savard for the address to send my request to see my DPJ dossier.
And that’s when she sent me the false address.
And that’s when the Power of the Written Word finally bit her in the ass.
And here we are. -
Limbo
It’s the Monday after my court appearance. I should be getting ready to go to the gym; it’s 8:00 in the morning and I’m ready to leave earlier than usual, and yet, I can’t help but sit here, at my laptop, thinking about Friday.
I testified by tearing apart the filings that Youth Protection used against me, point by point with calm, lucid rebuttals. I stated my opinions, challenged their accusations and spoke my truths.
I even told the judge that I was willing to submit my psych evals directly to court, because of how little trust I put in the DPJ of Quebec.
I did everything I could to calmly, clearly defend myself in the face of accusations of instability, unreliability, incapacity and every other false accusation I found within their filings.
I criticized the charged language they used to describe me, versus the humanizing language used to describe my ex-wife.
I did everything I could. Everything right.
So why do I feel like I’m just hanging in the void, waiting for the final blow to come against my fatherhood?
Why do I dread the coming of the judge’s decision?
Why can’t I just be a father to my children again? -
Section 2(b) – Freedom of expression
I have studied this section of the Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms since I began writing.
Posting about my situation in the face of the Quebec Youth Protection machine, this is the only venue available to me to discuss my truth; the truth the DPJ and the Family courts so conveniently ignore: that I was abused, that my ex-wife took advantage of the DPJ to help complete her long-standing goal of cutting me off from my children altogether.
No court order will prevent me from speaking my truth on this, my private website. I am a Canadian content creator, this website is the primary venue for my content, which is a personal reportage and public diary of what I have suffered and survived.
It is the only place, the one and only place, where people can hear my side of the story. As such, no court order, no judge, no one will keep me silent, anymore
I will go to jail to protect my Freedom of Expression as guaranteed under Canadian Charter law.
And here is the text that I will use to say as much:Section 2(b) – Freedom of expression
Provision2. Everyone has the following fundamental freedoms:
- freedom of thought, belief, opinion and expression, including freedom of the press and other media of communication.
Similar provisions
Similar provisions may be found in the following Canadian laws and international instruments binding on Canada: sections 1(d) and (f) of the Canadian Bill of Rights; article 19 of the International Covenant on Civil and Political Rights; article 13 of the Convention on the Rights of the Child; article 5(d)(viii) of the Convention on the Elimination of All Forms of Racial Discrimination; article 21 of the Convention on the Rights of Persons with Disabilities; article IV of the American Declaration of the Rights and Duties of Man
See also the following international, regional and comparative law instruments that are not binding on Canada but include similar provisions: article 19 of the Universal Declaration of Human Rights; article 10 of the European Convention for the Protection of Human Rights and Fundamental Freedoms; article 13 of the American Convention on Human Rights; the First Amendment of the American Constitution.Purpose
The protection of freedom of expression is premised upon fundamental principles and values that promote the search for and attainment of truth, participation in social and political decision-making and the opportunity for individual self-fulfillment through expression (Irwin Toy Ltd. v. Quebec (Attorney General), [1989] 1 S.C.R. 927 at page 976; Ford v. Quebec, [1988] 2 S.C.R. 712 at pages 765-766)
The Supreme Court of Canada has maintained that the connection between freedom of expression and the political process is “perhaps the linchpin” of section 2(b) protection (R. v. Keegstra, [1990] 3 S.C.R. 697; Thomson Newspapers Co. v. Canada (A.G.), [1998] 1 S.C.R. 877; Harper v. Canada (Attorney General), [2004] 1 S.C.R. 827). Free expression is valued above all as being instrumental to democratic governance. The two other rationales for protecting freedom of expression — encouraging the search for truth through the open exchange of ideas, and fostering individual self-actualization, thus directly engaging individual human dignity — are also key values that animate section 2(b) analysis.Analysis
Canadian courts have interpreted section 2(b) very broadly, often finding a prima facie breach easily
The Supreme Court has adopted the following three-part test for analyzing section 2(b): 1) Does the activity in question have expressive content, thereby bringing it within section 2(b) protection?; 2) Does the method or location of this expression remove that protection?; and 3) If the expression is protected by section 2(b), does the government action in question infringe that protection, either in purpose or effect? (Canadian Broadcasting Corp. v. Canada (Attorney General), 2011 SCC 2 (“Canadian Broadcasting Corp.”); Montréal (City) v. 2952-1366 Québec Inc., [2005] 3 S.C.R. 141; Irwin Toy Ltd., supra.)1. Does the activity in question have expressive content, thereby bringing it within section 2(b) protection?
Expression protected by section 2(b) has been defined as “any activity or communication that conveys or attempts to convey meaning” (Thomson Newspapers Co., supra; Irwin Toy Ltd., supra). The courts have applied the principle of content neutrality in defining the scope of section 2(b), such that the content of expression, no matter how offensive, unpopular or disturbing, cannot deprive it of section 2(b) protection (Keegstra, supra). Being content-neutral, the Charter also protects the expression of both truths and falsehoods (Canada (Attorney General) v. JTI-Macdonald Corp., [2007] 2 S.C.R. 610 at paragraph 60; R. v. Zundel, [1992] 2 S.C.R. 731 at paragraph 36; R. v. Lucas, [1998] 1 S.C.R. 439 at paragraph 25)
Freedom of expression includes more than the right to express beliefs and opinions. It protects both speakers and listeners (Edmonton Journal v. Alberta (Attorney General), [1989] 2 S.C.R. 1326). “Expression” may include all phases of the communication, from maker or originator through supplier, distributor, retailer, renter or exhibitor to receiver, whether listener or viewer (Dagenais v. Canadian Broadcasting Corp., [1994] 3 S.C.R. 835; Irwin Toy Ltd., supra; Rocket v. Royal College of Dental Surgeons of Ontario, [1990] 2 S.C.R. 232; R. v. Videoflicks (1984), 14 D.L.R. (4th) 10).
Protected expression has been found to include:- “music, art, dance, postering, physical movements, marching with banners, etc.” (Weisfeld v. Canada, [1995] 1 F.C. 68 (F.C.A.), CanLII – 1994 CanLII 9276 (FCA) at paragraph 30 (F.C.A.);
- commercial advertising (R. v. Guignard, [2002] 1 S.C.R. 472; Ford, supra; Irwin Toy Ltd., supra; Rocket, supra; Ramsden v. Peterborough (City), [1993] 2 S.C.R. 1084; RJR-MacDonald Inc. v. Canada (Attorney General), [1995] 3 S.C.R. 199; JTI-Macdonald Corp., supra);
- posters on utility poles (Ramsden, supra);
- peace camps (Weisfeld (F.C.A.), supra);
- signs and billboards (Guignard, supra; Vann Niagara Ltd. v. Oakville (Town), [2003] 3 S.C.R. 158);
- picketing (R.W.D.S.U., Local 558 v. Pepsi-Cola Canada Beverages, [2002] 1 S.C.R. 156; Dolphin Delivery Ltd. v. R.W.D.S.U. Local 580, [1986] 2 S.C.R. 573; B.C.G.E.U v. British Columbia (Attorney General), [1988] 2 S.C.R. 214; Dieleman v. Attorney General of Ontario (1994), 20 O.R. (3d) 229 (Ont. Gen. Div.); Morasse v. Nadeau-Dubois; 2016 SCC 44);
- handing out leaflets (U.F.C.W, Local 1518 v. Kmart Canada Ltd., [1999] 2 S.C.R. 1083; Allsco Building Products Ltd. v. U.F.C.W. Local 1288 P, [1999] 2 S.C.R. 1136);
- expressing oneself in the language of choice (Ford, supra);
- hate speech (Keegstra, supra; R. v. Zundel, supra; Saskatchewan (Human Rights Commission) v. Whatcott, 2013 SCC 11, [2013] 1 S.C.R. 467; Ross v. New Brunswick School Board (No. 15), [1996] 1 S.C.R. 825; Taylor v. Canada (Human Rights Commission), [1990] 3 S.C.R. 892);
- pornography (R. v. Butler, [1992] 1 S.C.R. 452; Little Sisters Book and Art Emporium v. Canada (Minister of Justice), [2000] 2 S.C.R. 1120);
- child pornography (Sharpe, supra; R v. Barabash, 2015 SCC 29);
- communication for the purpose of prostitution (Reference re: section 193 and paragraph 195.1(1)(c) of the Criminal Code (Manitoba),[1990] 1 S.C.R. 1123);
- noise being emitted by a loudspeaker from inside a club onto the street (Montréal (City), supra, at paragraph 58);
- importation of literature or pictorial material (Little Sisters, supra);
- defamatory libel (R. v. Lucas, supra at paragraph 25-27);
- voting (Siemens v. Manitoba (Attorney General), [2003] 1 S.C.R. 6 at paragraph 41; Haig v. Canada, [1993] 2 S.C.R. 995);
- running as a candidate for election (Baier v. Alberta, [2007] 2 S.C.R. 673);
- spending in election and referendum campaigns (Harper, supra; Libman v. Quebec (Attorney General), [1997] 3 S.C.R. 569; B.C. Freedom of Information and Privacy Association v. British Columbia (Attorney General), 2017 SCC 6);
- broadcasting of election results (R. v. Bryan, [2007] 1 S.C.R. 527);
- engaging in work for a political party or candidate (Osborne v. Canada (Treasury Board), [1991] 2 S.C.R. 69);
- publication of polling information and opinion surveys (Thomson Newspapers Co., supra);
- monetary contributions to a fund may constitute expression, for example, donations to a candidate or political party in the electoral context (Osborne, supra), though not where the expenditure of funds would be regarded as the expressive conduct of the union as a corporate entity (Lavigne v. Ontario Public Service Employees Union, [1991] 2 S.C.R. 211) and
- political advertising on public transit vehicles (Greater Vancouver Transportation Authority v. Canadian Federation of Students — British Columbia Component, [2009] 2 S.C.R. 295 “GVTA”).
Freedom of expression also protects the right not to express oneself.
“[F]reedom of expression necessarily entails the right to say nothing or the right not to say certain things. Silence is in itself a form of expression which in some circumstances can express something more clearly than words could do”
(Slaight Communications Inc. v. Davidson, [1989] 1 S.C.R. 1038 at page 1080). Thus, forced or compelled expression can constitute a restriction of section 2(b) (Slaight Communications, supra; RJR-MacDonald Inc., supra; National Bank of Canada v. Retail Clerks’ International Union, [1984] 1 S.C.R. 269). The Ontario Court of Appeal held that the requirement to recite an oath to the Queen at citizenship ceremonies does not infringe freedom of expression (McAteer v. Canada (Attorney General), 2014 ONCA 578, leave to appeal to the SCC denied 26 February 2015). Caution should be exercised when citing McAteer, supra, as this case seems to be inconsistent with the Supreme Court’s broad interpretation of section 2(b) of the Charter.
A regulatory requirement to file information and reports may amount to a restriction on freedom of expression where failure to comply is backed by sanctions such as fines or imprisonment (Harper, supra, paragraphs 138-139). The act of complying with the law is not the same as being compelled to express support for the law (Rosen v. Ontario (Attorney General) 131 D.L.R. (4th) 708 (Ont. C.A.)). Similarly, the compelled payment of taxes to government for use in funding legislative initiatives (e.g., public subsidies to election candidates to cover their campaign expenses) does not necessarily imply an expression of support for those initiatives (MacKay v. Manitoba, [1989] 2 S.C.R. 357; Lavigne, supra).
It is not necessary that an expression be received and subjectively understood for it to be protected expression under section 2(b) (Weisfeld (F.C.A.), supra; R. v. A.N. Koskolos Realty Ltd., (1995), 141 N.S.R. (2d) 309 (N.S.Prov.Ct.)).
The physical sale of a non-expressive product (cigarettes) has been found not to be a form of expression (Rosen, (Ont. C.A.)). The yellow colouring of margarine has been found not to be a form of expression (UL Canada Inc. v. Quebec (Attorney General), [2005] 1 S.C.R. 143, at paragraph 1).2. Does the method or location of this expression remove that protection?
The Supreme Court has stated that the method or location of the conveyance of a message will be excluded from 2(b) protection if this method or location conflicts with the values underlying the provision, namely: self-fulfillment, democratic discourse and truth finding (Canadian Broadcasting Corp., supra at paragraph 37; Montreal (City), supra at paragraph 72). In practice, however, this test is usually just applied to an analysis of the location of expression; the method of expression is generally considered to be within section 2(b) protection unless it takes the form of violence or threats of violence.
(i) Method of expression
Expression that takes the form of violence is not protected by the Charter (Irwin Toy Ltd., supra at pages 969-70). The Supreme Court has held that whether or not physical violence is expressive, it will not be protected by section 2(b) (Keegstra, supra; Zundel (1992), supra; Irwin Toy Ltd., supra). Threats of violence also fall outside the scope of section 2(b) protection (Greater Vancouver Transportation Authority, supra at paragraph 28; Suresh v. Canada (Minister of Citizenship and Immigration), [2002] 1 S.C.R. 3 at paragraphs 107-108; R v Khawaja, 2012 SCC 69 at paragraph 70). In other respects, the form or medium used to convey a message is generally considered part and parcel of the message and included within section 2(b) protection (Weisfeld (F.C.A.), supra).
(ii) Location of expression
Section 2(b) protection does not extend to all places. Private property, for example, will fall outside the protected sphere of section 2(b) absent state-imposed limits on expression, since state action is necessary to implicate the Charter. Certain lower court cases have suggested that freedom of expression does not encompass the infringement of copyright. This finding is justified on the basis that freedom of expression does not encompass the freedom to use someone else’s private property (e.g., their copyrighted material) for the purposes of expression (see Compagnie générale des établissements Michelin v. C.A.W. Canada, [1997] 2 F.C. 306 (T.D.)). It should be noted, however, that this interpretation of 2(b) seems to be inconsistent with the Supreme Court’s broad interpretation of the provision.
The application of section 2(b) is not automatic by the mere fact of government ownership of the place in question. There must be a further enquiry to determine if this is the type of public property which attracts section 2(b) protection (Montréal (City), supra, at paragraphs 62 and 71; Committee for the Commonwealth of Canada, supra). In Montréal (City), the majority of the Supreme Court set out the current test for the application of section 2(b) to public property (see also GVTA, supra). The onus of satisfying this test rests on the claimant (paragraph 73). The basic question with respect to expression on government-owned property is whether the place is a public place where one would expect constitutional protection for free expression on the basis that expression in that place does not conflict with the purposes which section 2(b) is intended to serve, namely (1) democratic discourse, (2) truth finding and (3) self-fulfillment. To answer this question, the following factors should be considered:- The historical or actual function of the place; and
- Whether other aspects of the place suggest that expression within it would undermine the values underlying free expression. (Montréal (City), paragraphs 73, 74).
The Supreme Court has highlighted that the ultimate question is the second factor (Montréal (City) at paragraph 77). In Canadian Broadcasting Corp, supra, the court added that analysis of the second factor should focus on the essential expressive activity as opposed to the “excesses” that would be incidental to this activity. In that particular case, the essential expressive activity, a journalist’s ability to gather news at a courthouse to inform the public about court proceedings, was held to engage section 2(b), despite the incidental excesses of this expression (“…crowds, pushing and shoving, and pursuing possible subjects in order to interview, film or photograph them…”) (paragraphs 43, 45).
Other relevant questions that that may guide the analysis of whether expression in a particular location is protected under 2(b) are: whether the space is one in which free expression has traditionally occurred; whether the space is in fact essentially private, despite being government-owned, or public; whether the function of the space is compatible with open public expression, or whether the activity is one that requires privacy and limited access; whether an open right to intrude and present one’s message by word or action would be consistent with what is done in the space, or whether it would hamper the activity (Montréal (City), paragraph 76). There is some flexibility in the analysis and allowing public expression in a particular government-property location does not commit the government to such use indefinitely (GVTA, paragraph 44).3. Does the law or government action at issue, in purpose or effect, restrict freedom of expression?
(i) Purpose
Where the purpose of a government action is to restrict the content of expression, to control access to a certain message, or to limit the ability of a person who attempts to convey a message to express themselves, that purpose will infringe section 2(b) (Irwin Toy Ltd., supra; Keegstra, supra).
(ii) Effect
Even if a purpose is compatible with section 2(b), an individual may be able to demonstrate that the effect of the government action infringes their section 2(b) right. In this situation, the individual must show that their expression advances one or more of the values underlying section 2(b), e.g., participation in social and political decision making, the search for truth and individual self-fulfillment (Irwin Toy Ltd., supra; Ramsden, supra). While more recent Supreme Court decisions still refer to this principle of showing the effect of government action, the Court does not appear to apply with a great deal of vigor the requirement that an individual show an advancement of values, tending instead to easily find a restriction of section 2(b).
If a court concludes that the government action, in either purpose or effect, infringes section 2(b), it will then consider whether the limit on free expression is justifiable under section 1.Selected issues
1. Section 2(b) – A requirement for positive government action?
Freedom of expression generally imposes on government a negative obligation not to interfere with expression, that is to say it is freedom from government legislation or action suppressing an expressive activity in which people would otherwise be free to engage (Haig v. Canada, [1993] 2 S.C.R. 995 at page 1035; Baier v. Alberta, [2007] 2 S.C.R. 673 at paragraph 20; Toronto (City) v. Ontario (Attorney General), 2021 SCC 34 at paragraph 16). “The traditional view, in colloquial terms, is that the freedom of expression contained in section 2(b) prohibits gags, but does not compel the distribution of megaphones” (Haig, supra at page 1035). In general, it is up to the government to determine which forms of expression are entitled to special support; where the government chooses to provide a platform for expression it must do so in a manner consistent with the Charter, including section 15 (Delisle v. Canada (Deputy Attorney General), [1999] 2 S.C.R. 989; Siemens, supra at paragraph 43; NWAC v. Canada, [1994] 3 S.C.R. 627).
However, section 2(b) may, in certain circumstances, impose positive obligations on government to facilitate expression by legislating or otherwise acting to provide persons with a platform for expression (Baier v. Alberta, supra; Toronto (City), supra at paragraphs 17-19). To determine whether a claim is for a “positive right”, one must question whether the claim would require the government to act in order to support or enable an expressive activity, in contrast to a negative right that would require the government to refrain from restricting the content or meaning of expression or from acting in other ways (Baier, supra at paragraph 35; Toronto (City) at paragraph 20). A positive claim does not become a claim for a negative right where the government reduces access to a platform for expression to which the claimants previously had access (Baier, supra at paragraph 36; Toronto (City), supra at paragraph 19).
A positive claim will be determined pursuant to the “single core question” set out in Toronto (City) (supra at paragraph 25): “is the claim grounded in the fundamental Charter freedom of expression, such that, by denying access to a statutory platform or by otherwise failing to act, the government has either substantially interfered with freedom of expression, or had the purpose of interfering with freedom of expression?” In this context “a substantial interference with freedom of expression occurs where lack of access to a statutory platform has the effect of radically frustrating expression to such an extent that meaningful expression is ‘effectively preclude[d]’” (Toronto (City), supra at paragraph 27).2. Does section 2(b) protect a broader right of access to information?
Section 2(b) guarantees freedom of expression, not access to information, and therefore does not guarantee access to all documents in government hands. Access to documents in government hands is constitutionally protected only where, without the desired access, meaningful public discussion and criticism on matters of public interest would be substantially impeded (Ontario (Public Safety and Security) v. Criminal Lawyers’ Association (2010), 319 D.L.R. (4th) 385; 2010 SCC 23). Where a claimant demonstrates that the denial of access effectively precludes meaningful commentary, there is a prima facie case for the production of the documents in question (Criminal Lawyers Association, supra, at paragraphs 33, 37).
However, even where a prima facie case is established, the section 2(b) claim may be defeated by countervailing considerations inconsistent with production (Criminal Lawyers Association at paragraphs 33, 38). These considerations include privileges, such as solicitor-client privilege and other well-established common-law privileges (Criminal Lawyers Association at paragraph 39). They also include “functional constraints” — e.g., assessment of whether a particular government function is incompatible with access to certain documents. Certain types of documents — such as Cabinet confidences — may remain exempt from disclosure because disclosure would impact the proper functioning of affected institutions (Criminal Lawyers Association at paragraph 40).3. The open court principle
Section 2(b) protects the “open court principle”, a strong presumption in favour of open courts that allows the public and the press to attend hearings, to consult court files, and to inquire into and comment on the workings of the courts (Canadian Broadcasting Corp. v. Named Person, 2024 SCC 21 at paragraphs 27-32; Sherman Estate v. Donovan, 2021 SCC 25). The open court principle is embedded in the common law tradition and is protected by section 2(b) because it promotes the full and fair discussion of public institutions, which is vital to any democracy (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraph 30; Ruby v. Canada (Solicitor General), [2002] 4 S.C.R. 3 at paragraph 53; Canadian Broadcasting Corp. v. New Brunswick (Attorney General), [1996] 3 S.C.R. 480 at paragraph 23; Edmonton Journal v. Alberta (Attorney General), [1989] 2 S.C.R. 1326 at pages 1339-40; B.C.G.E.U. v. British Columbia (Attorney General), [1988] 2 S.C.R. 214; R. v. MacIntyre, [1982] 1 S.C.R. 175) In particular, open courts discourage mischief and ensure confidence in the administration of justice through transparency (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraphs 39, 44).
The open court principle is also protected as appropriate under the right to a fair and public trial pursuant to section 7 and section 11(d).
The open court principle protects the freedom of the press to access and report on court proceedings, since the press serves as “the eyes and ears” of the public (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraphs 1, 30, 39; Re Vancouver Sun, [2004] 2 S.C.R. 332 at paragraph 26). In exceptional circumstances, competing interests may justify restrictions on court openness (see below).
The open court principle applies to all judicial proceedings, whatever their nature (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraph 44). This entails a presumption of access to both criminal and civil hearings, and also, for example, to pretrial proceedings (Re Vancouver Sun, supra at paragraph 27), probate proceedings (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraphs. 44-45), and court exhibits (Canadian Broadcasting Corp. v. The Queen, [2011] 1 S.C.R. 65 at paragraph 12; Canadian Broadcasting Corp. v. New Brunswick (Attorney General), supra; Hill v. Church of Scientology of Toronto, [1995] 2 S.C.R. 1130). Court openness would be limited by, for example, sealing orders, publication bans, orders excluding the public from a hearing, or redaction orders (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraph 38).
Legislative enactments that automatically limit court openness require justification under s. 1 of the Charter following the Oakes test (Toronto Star Newspapers Ltd. v. Canada, [2010] 1 S.C.R. 721 at paragraph 18). Some legislative limits have been found to be justifiable; for example, a mandatory publication ban on the evidence and representations made at bail hearings was justified because it helped to safeguard the right to a fair trial and to ensure expeditious bail hearings thus avoiding unnecessary detention (Toronto Star Newspapers Ltd., supra). Where the legislation gives the judge discretion whether to limit court openness, the legislation itself will be consistent with section 2(b) because it allows for a case-by-case balancing of interests analogous to the Oakes test (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraph 40; Toronto Star Newspapers Ltd., supra at paragraph 18).
A person asking a court to exercise discretion in a way that limits court openness must establish that: (1) court openness poses a serious risk to an important public interest; (2) the order sought is necessary to prevent this risk because reasonably alternative measures will not prevent the risk; and (3) as a matter of proportionality, the benefits of the order outweigh its negative effects. This test applies to all discretionary limits on court openness. (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraph 38; Sierra Club of Canada v. Canada (Minister of Finance), [2002] 2 S.C.R. 522; R. v. Mentuck, [2001] 3 S.C.R. 442; Dagenais v. Canadian Broadcasting Corp., [1994] 3 S.C.R. 835.)
For the first condition, the recognized scope of important public interests that may justify a discretionary exception to court openness has broadened over time (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraph 41) and includes trial fairness (Dagenais, supra at page 878), the proper administration of justice (Mentuck, supra at paragraph 32), the commercial interest of preserving confidential information (Sierra Club, supra at paragraph 55), and privacy (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraphs 46-85). Some loss of privacy is inevitable in open courts and may cause discomfort, embarrassment, or distress, which are insufficient to overcome the presumption of openness; the relevant public interest that may justify a discretionary exception to court openness is more specifically the personal dignity that is damaged by a loss of control over intimate or personal details (fundamental, or core information) and of one’s ability to present these aspects of oneself to others in a selective manner (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraphs 56-78). Whether court openness poses a serious risk to any important public interest depends on the facts in context and thus must be determined on the basis of evidence (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraph 42).
The second condition in the test for discretionary limits on court openness—that the order be necessary—requires the court to consider whether there are alternatives to the order sought and to restrict the order as much as reasonably possible to prevent the serious risk to the important public interest (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraph 105; Sierra Club, supra at paragraph 57). The third condition—proportionality—requires the court to consider whether the benefits of any order that is necessary to prevent the serious risk outweighs the harmful effects of the order, including the negative impact on the open court principle (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraph 106; Sierra Club, supra at paragraph 53). For example, when balancing privacy interests against the open court principle, courts are to consider whether the information that the order seeks to protect is peripheral or central to the judicial process (Sherman Estate, supra at paragraph 106; A.B. v. Bragg Communications Inc., [2012] 2 S.C.R. 567 at paragraphs 28-29).4. Access to legislative proceedings
Parliamentary privileges are constitutional and therefore a legislative assembly can regulate access to its proceedings pursuant to its privileges, even if doing so limits the freedom of the press to report on such proceedings (N.B. Broadcasting Co. v. Nova Scotia (Speaker of the House Assembly), [1993] 1 S.C.R. 319; Zundel v. Boudria, et al. (1999), 46 O.R. (3d) 410 (Ont. C.A.)).
5. Journalistic immunity
Section 2(b) does not protect all techniques of “news gathering”. Freedom of expression and freedom of the press do not encompass a broad immunity for journalists from either the production of physical evidence relevant to a criminal offence or against disclosure of confidential sources. Therefore, a judicial order to compel disclosure of a secret source would not in general limit section 2(b), whether in a criminal trial (R. v. National Post, supra at paragraphs 37-41) or in the context of civil litigation (Globe and Mail, supra at paragraphs 20-22). A qualified journalist-source privilege exists in the common law and a test that is informed by Charter values is used to determine the existence of privilege on a case by case basis (R. v. National Post, supra, paragraphs 50-55; Globe and Mail, supra at paragraphs 53-57). On an application for a production order against the media, the authorizing judge should apply to the facts of the case a specific analysis that balances the state’s interest in the investigation and prosecution of crimes and the media’s right to privacy in gathering and disseminating the news (R. v. Vice Media Canada Inc., 2018 SCC 53 at paragraph 82).
6. Application of section 2(b) in private litigation
While a private law case is not governed directly by the Charter, the evolution of the common law is to be informed and guided by Charter values (Grant v. Torstar Corp., [2009] 3 S.C.R. 640 at paragraph 44; Quan v. Cusson, [2009] 3 S.C.R. 712; Hill v. Church of Scientology of Toronto, supra at paragraph 97; WIC Radio Ltd. v. Simpson, [2008] 2 S.C.R. 420 at paragraph 2 re: defamation actions). Courts should, from time to time, re-evaluate the consistency of the common law with “evolving societal expectations through the lens of Charter values” (Grant v. Torstar Corp., supra at paragraph 46). The values underlying section 2(b) of the Charter have been the basis for recent changes to the common law of defamation, which created a new defence of “responsible communication on matters of public interest” (Grant v. Torstar Corp.; Quan v. Cusson).
Section 2(b) does not create a privilege in journalists’ notes in the context of private litigation (Bank of B.C. v. Canada Broadcasting Corp. (1995), 126 D.L.R. (4th) 644 (B.C.C.A.)). Private broadcasters are not required to provide a forum for particular messages (NWAC, supra; Haig, supra; New Brunswick Broadcasting Co. v. CRTC, [1984] 2 F.C. 410 (F.C.A.), Trieger v. Canada Broadcasting Corp. (1988), 66 O.R. (2d) 273 (Ont. H.C.J, 1988 CanLII 4568 (ON SC)); Natural Law Party v. Canada Broadcasting Corp., [1994] 1 F.C. 580 (T.D.)). The CBC, at least in its role as an independent newscaster, is not subject to the Charter (Trieger, supra; Natural Law Party, supra). Where judges must implement Charter values in the exercise of their discretion in particular situations, it is not necessary that a party who argues how those Charter values should be applied give constitutional notice (Bank of B.C., supra).
Although the Charter applies to the common law, and although judges should develop the common law in a manner consistent with Charter values (R.W.D.S.U. v. Pepsi-Cola, supra), section 2(b) will not protect persons engaged in private litigation where the limit on the freedom of expression is found in the common law (e.g., inducement to breach contract) and where there is no significant government action involved (Dolphin Delivery, supra; Hill, supra).7. Expression by public servants
For public servants, freedom to express public criticism of government policies is restricted by a common law duty of loyalty to their employer (Fraser v. P.S.S.R.B., [1985] 2 S.C.R. 455 the leading case on this issue although it was technically not decided under section 2(b); see also Haydon et. al. v. Canada, [2001] 2 F.C. 82 (F.C.T.D.); Haydon v. Canada (Treasury Board), 2004 FC 749 at paragraph 43 (F.C.)). The purpose of the duty, to promote an impartial and effective public service, has been found to be a pressing and substantial objective (Haydon (2001), supra at paragraphs 69 to 75; Haydon (2004), supra at paragraph 45 (F.C.); Osborne, supra). The duty should restrict freedom of expression minimally and does not demand absolute silence from public servants (Osborne, supra; Haydon (2001), supra at paragraph 86). To ensure minimal impairment and proportionality between effect and objective, there is a need to balance the duty of loyalty and the value of freedom of expression (Fraser, supra; Haydon (2001), supra at paragraph 67; Haydon (2004), supra at paragraph 45; Alberta Union of Provincial Employees (A.U.P.E.) v. Alberta, 2002 ABCA 202, 218 (4th) D.L.R. 16 at paragraph 29).
Generally, it has been found that where an issue embraces matters of public concern, such as where the government engages in illegal acts, where government policies jeopardize the life, health or safety of others, or if the criticism has no impact on public servants’ ability to perform their duties effectively or on the public perception of that ability, the public interest outweighs the objective of an impartial and effective public service (Haydon (2001), supra at paragraphs 82-83; Haydon (2004), supra at paragraph 45; Stenhouse v. Canada (Attorney General), 2004 FC 375 (F.C.) at paragraph 32).8. Standard for interlocutory injunctions
For the purposes of granting an interlocutory injunction in cases of defamation or hate speech, the courts will apply a different test than in Cyanamid (American Cyanamid Co. v. Ethicare Ltd., [1975] A.C. 396 (H.L), approved in Manitoba (Attorney General) v. Metropolitan Stores Ltd., [1987] 1 S.C.R. 110 at pages 128-129). The harm test in Cyanamid is inappropriate in this context (CHRC v. Canadian Liberty Net, [1998] 1 S.C.R. 626).
9. Freedom of expression as a Charter value in discretionary administrative decision making
Freedom of expression is also a “Charter value” and administrative decision makers must properly balance the relevant statutory objectives with this value when exercising their discretion under a statute. In Doré, the Supreme Court found that professional disciplinary bodies like the Barreau du Québec may have to tolerate a “degree of discordant criticism” of the judiciary because of the value of freedom of expression. However, the decision of the Barreau’s Disciplinary Council to reprimand Mr. Doré in this particular case was justified because of “the excessive degree of vituperation” in the tone of his letter to a judge. The Court held that civility requirements for lawyers must be balanced with the benefits of “open, and even forceful, criticism of our public institutions.” (Doré v. Barreau du Québec, [2012] 1 S.C.R. 395).
Section 1 considerations particular to this section
The broad scope of section 2(b) means that in most cases the constitutionality of the legislation or the government action will depend on the section 1 analysis. Generally speaking, because of the importance of the right to free expression, “any attempt to restrict the right must be subjected to the most careful scrutiny” (Sharpe, supra at paragraph 22). However, the
“degree of constitutional protection may vary depending on the nature of the expression at issue…the low value of the expression may be more easily outweighed by the government objective”
(Thomson Newspapers Co., supra at paragraph 91; JTI-Macdonald Corp., supra; Lucas, supra at paragraphs 116 and 121; Sharpe, supra at paragraph 181; Whatcott, supra at paragraphs 147-148; Butler, supra at page 150). For example, limits are easier to justify where the expressive activity only tenuously furthers section 2(b) values, such as in the case of hate speech, pornography or marketing of a harmful product (Keegstra, supra; Whatcott, supra; Rocket, supra; JTI-Macdonald Corp., supra). Limits on political speech will generally be the most difficult to justify (Thomson Newspapers Co., supra; Harper, supra). Restrictions will also be more difficult to justify where they capture expression that furthers artistic, scientific, educational or other useful social purposes (Butler, supra).
Whether the limit minimally impairs the right to freedom of expression is often the deciding factor in section 2(b) cases. A total prohibition on a form of expression will be more difficult to justify than a partial prohibition (RJR-MacDonald Inc., supra; JTI-Macdonald Corp., supra; Ruby, supra; Thomson Newspapers Co., supra; Toronto Star Newspapers Ltd., supra). A restriction on expression backed by a civil penalty rather than a criminal sanction such as imprisonment will be considered a less impairing alternative (Zundel (1992), supra; Taylor, supra)
Where the limit on freedom of expression is minimal, the court may, in certain circumstances like elections advertising, accept section 1 justifications for this limit based on logic and reason without supporting social science evidence (B.C. Freedom of Information, supra). -
The DPJ Took My Babies Away Part Two: The DPJ Spin Machine is a Blender
In a move that should absolutely surprise nobody, the DPJ thinks that they can block my Charter Right to Freedom of Expression!
I’m expected in Family [Kangaroo] Court in the next couple of weeks, and in their filing, the malignant “Youth Protection” racket is spinning me to be an abuser, instead of the abused. They’re painting me as unstable, violent, and hostile. They’re likewise going to ask the judge to make me surrender said same right, and stop talking about my case at all.
And in case that doesn’t work, they’re also saying that either my disabilities are lies, or they are so debilitating that they should be allowed to discriminate against a disabled man and keep me from my children.
So, I am in what Trekkies refer to as the Kobayashi Maru Scenario: A no-win situation; a test, not of my ability to win, but of how I act in the face of certain defeat.
So first and foremost, I will maintain these log buoys until such time as my voice is heard, or the situation is otherwise resolved.
Even when the cover art is done and I return to my How to Get Your Foot in the Door of a Publisher, or Why you Should Say “Fuck it,” Have the Book Beta Read, Rewrite the Bastard a Couple of Times, Pay for Editing, Pay For Cover Art, Even If You Have to Save to Do it: Pro Tip: Start Stashing Away Some Money When You Start Writing Your First Draft posts. (Look, I’ve said from the beginning the title of my non-accredited university-level course is a work in progress.) I am still going to post about what I’ve gone through, and what I’ve survived, and most especially, who I have become.
I’ve already described how I was the victim, not the victimizer in our marriage; how my ex-wife made me feel like her employee, not her partner; how I had to hide money from her in order to be able to do anything on my own; how she denigrated and isolated me from my friends, policed when and where I could go out, while she could go on weeklong road-trips with her friends (anyone see a pattern emerging?); the emotional manipulation, gaslighting…I’ll repeat my testimony here, and restate it while defending my right to post my grievance in family court, and if necessary, from criminal court, if I have to. I’m willing to go to jail for what I am writing about in this, my personal website. The only compromise I will make is further obfuscating the identities of the dramatis personae, for the sake of anonymity.
It should go without saying that I will respect my children’s privacy, and not share personal details not relevant to my testimony. I will share the happy anecdotes I remember, and I will talk openly about those instances where either my ex wife or the DPJ was interfering with my relationships with my children. (Like when M. asked Leia those inappropriate and leading questions and she told me it was suss)
But as far as family court, I don’t honestly think the judge will have any interest in my testimony, my truth; or the truth at all: just the version of the truth that the DPJ give up on the sacrificial altar of misandry.
I know that no matter what I say, the family court case will not in any way, shape or form have a positive outcome for me, or my wellness. They’re already going to try and get me on contempt charges because when I was told of their motion to recuse themselves of the case and help my ex-wife gain full custody and therefore keep me away from my own children until they are all 18 years old.
By the time Leia and Luke are 18, I’ll be a 60 year old man.
Not only are the DPJ refusing to acknowledge my truth, now they are trying to keep me from speaking it at all, because “SOMEHOW” (Read: someone told them about it) my kids found this blog, and for the first time in their lives heard MY side of the story; I never said an unkind word about their mother to them. Here in this space, my personal weblog, I would say that my ex-wife was the instigator of most of the arguments that devolved into shouting matches between us. I owe my fair share, but it takes two to tango. Do I talk shit about her here? Yeah, given what I’ve been through, I mean probably; and considering I’m not naming names, and this is my personal webspace, I really don’t see how that’s anyone’s business.
I’m going to say this, now: I may be a bad person, I may be struggling like Sisyphus to be a better person, but at my core I am two things: first and foremost, I am at the very core of my being a loving father; I have always been loving, nurturing and kind with my children. And then, just beyond that solid, immutable inner core of fatherhood, my outer core is that I am a writer. Being a writer used to be my inner core; then my children came into this world, and my life, my purpose on this Earth were irrevocably changed; for all my faults, which I own and am ashamed of, I like to believe fatherhood made me a better person. But though I am now a father first and foremost, I was once first and foremost a writer, and just as I will always be a father first, I will always be a writer second.
As such, I adamantly believe in the right of free expression, and the right of information to be available, and I am willing to go to prison, if it means fighting to exercise my right to be heard. That goes for “FREE PALESTINE FROM THE RIVER TO THE SEA” as it does to “YOU WILL NOT KEEP ME FROM USING MY PLATFORM TO SPEAK MY TRUTH” or “BOYCOTT, DIVEST, SANCTION,” “FREE LUIGI” “DENY, DEFEND, DEPOSE,” “FUCK THE POLICE,” or anything else that would have the pearl-clutchers’ panties in a knot.
I will truck no bigotry, queerphobia or speech designed to incite hatred or violence, but honestly, given the dangerous alternative, I will even fight for those loathsome bastards’ rights to express their stupid, violent bigot positions:
You can’t get rid of bedbugs by leaving them to fester in t he dark; you have to first shed light on them to make them go away. So it is for hate speech. Banning it, hiding from it only makes it stronger, more dangerous. What’s happening in the Ignited States and Israeli-settler occupied Palestine are prime examples of what happens when bigotry and hate are ignored until they are normalized and even embedded in the politics of the nation, instead of speaking truth to power, with surety, with the courage that comes with verity. For Christ’s sake, with all it’s identity politics and institutionalized bigotry, Quebec could be accused of the same villainy.
I am willing to go to prison if it is the consequence of speaking my truth, of sharing my experiences.
They are quite literally trying to deny me my voice. And their latest excuse is that my kids “found out” (I wonder how) about this blog, and are upset by what I’m posting.
I’m sorry to have upset my kids. My intention has never been to cause them any undue stress or harm. I would never deliberately cause them harm. In fact, I have repeatedly and openly admitted how ashamed I am of how I would behave when in a crisis for my undiagnosed-at-the-time personality disorder. I have tried to tell them how sorry I am. I can’t even quantify how much shame and regret I feel for every distress I have made them suffer.
The DPJ’s accusation that somehow I’m shattering their childhood innocence is ridiculous; my smart, sarcastic, clever kids make the kids from Roseanne look like the kids from Leave it to Beaver. Their mother was allowing them to watch Family Guy and other adult-oriented entertainment when they were still in diapers; are her feet being held to the fire over it? No.
I recognize that my behavior is what caused the alienation between me and my children. I recognize that during my breakdown, my behavior caused my children harm, upset and even trauma. It should go without saying I never intended to be the cause of anything bad in my kids’ lives. Hell, when Obi-Wan was a toddler, he choked on a piece of apple and I had to give him the Heimlich. I was devastated, not just because he almost died, but that I caused him physical pain while saving his life, when he was too young to even understand why I hurt him, even after he calmed down and I tried to explain what happened to him.
So believe me when I say I recognize my fault in all of this, and I am mortally ashamed, mortified of my behavior, of the person I was; a person I don’t recognize, anymore. Now I am a person that even the judge in my criminal from against the social worker I rage-texted told me that I am no longer him. In fact, the judge’s only admonishment was to stop being so hard on myself; I told their honor I would take it under advisement.
What I did not expect was to come out the other side of my struggles, penitent, lucid, ashamed of who I was, ashamed of what I’ve done to my children because I was sick and untreated for so long, now a new man whose only desire is to reestablish a relationship with the three people in the entirety of reality who matter to me most, and be denied the privilege because of nit-picking bigoted bureaucrats who care more about their agenda than they do a fathers’ rights. I would do anything for my children; I’d crawl over hot coals and broken glass to just gain their forgiveness. And I will always hope and wait for the day we are reunited, even if it is only because they seek closure.
Hell, I’d let them take a swing at me, if they want. They deserve to take a pop at me for what I said in those texts they “stumbled” across.
Hell, I already got one not-entirely-blocked and yet-entirely-well-deserved Lightsaber whack to the left knee that, if it was deliberate, then it only makes me more proud of my young Luke, who with what little training I had given him, defeated me, and gave me some comeuppance in the process. I am someone who has lovingly practiced Lightsaber Kendo for more than a decade. And with only a few actual duels under his belt, my son took me out with a most impressive form and execution. The boy is a natural athlete, and he is going to be as much of a powerhouse and unstoppable force as his brother and sister.
My children have never stopped humbling, impressing, or surprising me, and I am proud of everything they’ve accomplished in life, at their so very young ages. Early days, so much unfettered potential.
The only good thing I can say about the DPJ is that they made sure my kids have the help and guidance they need. For that, I am honestly and sincerely grateful. Concerning everything else that the DPJ has done, they can go fuck themselves off all the way to the gates of Perdition.
If the knee-whang Luke delivered wasn’t deliberate, I deserved it nevertheless. Not just because of what I have done and failed to do previously, but also because he got under my guard and struck a decisive blow. I thought I had blocked it, but polycarbonate Lightsabers are more flexible than the ones that emit a beam of electromagnetically-locked plasma, focused and amplified through a kyber crystal and turned into an omnidirectional energy blade. So I got whanged. HARD. My fault for not anticipating moves I hadn’t shown him, or that he was so quick to adapt and improvise. My fault for underestimating my young Jedi because I was slow and clumsy at his age.
I underestimated young Luke; the learner surpassed the master. He defeated me by using my own technique against me. He has warrior spirit. I love him and I am proud of him, and I got exactly what I fucking deserved when he whanged my knee whether or not it was intentional, for both moral and technical reasons. This is the Way.
I am not the one responsible for the kids discovering my weblog. It is not my legal burden that they found my writing space. The fact that they did means they were (more likely) fed the information, or discovered it on their own. Did I say [write] that I wished I could seek them out? That I want so much to be able to communicate with them again? What alienated father who can stand to look himself in the mirror wouldn’t hope to find some means of reaching out to their most dearly loved ones?
If it is the former, then that’s just more proof of active attempts to alienate my children from me. If it’s the latter, then I have the solace of knowing my children at least want to know where, in my life, I am. What better place to tell them about the man I’ve become than here?
And, I also recognize, as does my psychiatrist, that my breakdown did not happen in a vacuum; it takes two to tango. The DPJ had their part to play, whether they want to admit it or not, whether they want to believe it or not; people don’t just spontaneously combust; something always sets them off: there is always a trigger, and there is always a finger squeezing that trigger back, be it slowly, or in one quick shot.
During my struggles following my liberating separation from my ex-wife, I lost my friends, one by one, dropping like ducks in a row. I recognize that this is my fault, and has to do entirely with how I behaved toward them. All I can do now is to be better every day than I was the day before. This is the Way.
Yes, I also admit that towards the DPJ I am angry, I am verbally hostile, and I have no respect and nothing but contempt and loathing for them because of what they made me survive. But overt hostility towards people I feel have done me a grave injustice does not mean I am a danger, or violent, enraged, nor intimidating, nor threatening, physically abusive, cruel to animals, a serial arsonist/killer/mime/birthday clown or right-wing podcaster.
I’m not unstable, and the only reason I may be unreliable is because I have chronic health conditions with symptoms that I have to deal with every day. If I’m puking my guts out, I’m sure as hell not going to invite my children to come watch me puke my guts out. If I’m in agony, arthrosciatic or mechanical, I certainly won’t be in any condition to see my children. And my disabilities should NOT in any way be used to justify keeping me from my children. I could have seen them by videoconference, online chat, a myriad of different ways. I even proposed them to the DPJ, and the remained uncaring and unmoved.
The DPJ asked for access to my latest psych evals. I asked them to answer a question, one question, in writing: Why should I trust you not to cherry-pick your information from my psych evaluation, which I know for a fact that you did, last time? They refused to answer in writing, and thought they could send me obfuscating tangential legalese nonanswers, instead of providing an actual written answer to the fucking question.
That in and of itself is a gross demonstration on their part of very bad faith. So I cut off all cooperation with them, after discussing the situation with my psychiatrist.
Meanwhile, without access to my file, and given my hostility towards their insincere offers to put me in a room with my daughter, or even send my children any kind of message at all, they are trying to paint me as a violent man, as unstable, and as a threat to the health and safety of my children, then have the gall to accuse me of being uncooperative when they literally weponized the art of manipulating the truth to fit the narrative they are pushing.
The DPJ are discriminating against me because of their unspoken rule of Always Blame the Man. I am willing to go to prison to defend my freedom of expression. The DPJ also refuses to acknowledge any of the progress I’ve made as I’ve struggled to shed the skin of generational and conjugal abuse that made me into the monster I was. They cherry-picked the last psych eval I let them see in order to paint me as irresponsible and unreliable, they claim my diagnoses of arthrosciatic pain and cyclical vomiting syndrome are lies, and they think I’m using my knee brace and cane as a fucking prop.
Next, they’re going to demand access to my full medical records.
This place is the only venue I have to express my pain. It is my private website. I own and operate it. If their mother doesn’t want our children to access my website, this website, if their mother does not want our children read about what I went through in our very dysfunctional marriage, if their mother doesn’t want my children to have even a minute connection to me, if their mother does not want them to hear my side of things, if their mother does not want them to learn that I was never, in any way, physically violent with her. While she would berate, belittle, bully and demean and threaten me constantly; that she would even get up in my face and physically intimidated me, there’s a simple solution: Be a responsible parent and monitor and where necessary filter their online content access.
Instead, the DPJ would rather silence me; better to hide their transgressions.
I WILL NOT ALLOW MY CHARTER RIGHTS TO BE REVOKED BY A BUREAUCRATIC ARM OF THE QUEBEC GOVERNMENT THAT ACTS WITHOUT OVERSIGHT, LIABILITY OR CONSEQUENCE, AND THE UNBRIDLED POWER OF A MEDIEVAL PROVINCIAL DUCHY.
Just because Quebec is a medieval provincial duchy does not mean I have any obligation to accept such grotesque abuses of my human rights.
Let me state, for the record, that I am lucid, that I am self-aware, that I practice empathy whenever I have any kind of human interaction, I do somewhere between 4 and 5 K on a treadmill two to three times a week, depending on my schedule, I am waiting to hear back from a men’s mental health and wellness organization, and my psychiatrist is also putting me on the waiting list for a clinical group for men with similar mood disorders. I’m seeking treatment for my back issues, there’s not a hell of a lot they can do for my knee, and CVS (the pukey illness not the American pharmacy chain) is something I’m still waiting on an appointment with my gastro to discuss. Meanwhile, every two weeks I have to have iron infusions, because my anemia is back, and is more aggressive, despite watching my diet and exercising two to three times a week for at least an hour each time.
Also, the DPJ has since the beginning repeatedly admonished me because my children were afraid for my health. I explained, reassuringly that while my ailments were chronic, that they were not going to kill me, and when I didn’t see them it was never, ever because I didn’t want to see them; it was always because I didn’t want them to see me sick and suffering.
The institutional bias built against me is ridiculous, and they are trying to make me look like something even my psychiatrist acknowledges I am not: paranoid. He recognizes that my mental breakdown didn’t happen in a vacuum, and agrees that the DPJ’s pressure was the likely trigger. It should not be surprising, then, that I become acrimoniously vulgar, and use Big Bad Words like shit, piss, fuck, cunt, cocksucker, motherfucker and tits. Oh, I call them every name in the book; and I tell them where to shove the book, mainly because every conversation with them starts out the same: we’re civil to each other, then over the course of a few exchanges, they start giving me all the reasons they think I’m not Meeting Expectations. Then comes the proselytization about how I’m failing my children, then the demands wrapped in threats.
So when I say something like, “FUCK all of you; from the youth court, all the way to the castrato you have filling the photocopiers, go take a long walk off a short pier, go play in traffic, go wave a red flag in front of a Brahman bull, eat a bag of dicks, fist-fuck a hornet’s next, French-kiss an electric light socket, stick your head in a woodchipper, eat a Tide Pod while doing the Cinnamon Challenge, bungie jump into a sarlaac pit, cover yourself in moose piss and stand in the woods naked, eat shit and die, and – and I mean this most sincerely, go fuck yourself,” it is because I can no longer tolerate their carrot-and-stick approach, their refusal to provide me any services despite bending over backwards to help my ex-wife, or the fact that they use my children to emotionally blackmail me.
I severed contact with them for my own mental wellness, after discussing it with my psychiatrist. Because every time they communicated with me, their domineering tone, their veiled threats, and the personal denigration would trigger my rage – not anger; honest, righteous rage, which I am otherwise managing quite well, thank you.
And yes, it’s a trigger; that means I can’t control the fact that when someone pulls my trigger, I metaphorically start firing proverbial, completely not real, bullets. They’re the idiots pointing the loaded revolver at themselves and pulling the trigger.
That’s why it’s called a trigger.
So when I spout off enraged vulgarities, many and most of which I learned in high school, college, and by watching Parliamentary debates and the US Congress, it is because that is how my traumatic survival response to their behavior towards me is triggered.
And they fucking KNOW it; which is why they persist in triggering me.
They say I’ve made threats, which is a bunch of fucking bullshit: if I had said anything REMOTELY actionable they’d have had me in irons and being shitkicked in an “isolation room” by six pigs from Station 44. I learned that the hard way, when they triggered me into a nervous breakdown, which let to me rage-texting the DPJ caseworker of the time, which led to said arrest and assault.
And then, because my ex-wife and I often argued by text, and I very often resorted to the same sort of angry vulgarities – because I was finally free after years of oppression to speak my mind – as written above, someone at the DPJ pushed her to file a similar harassment complaint with the cops, and she embellished a nonexistent history of husband-on-wife domestic violence just to get them to be extra brutal once I got picked up.
You know what I texted that was the straw that broke the camel’s back? Something along the lines of “I’m moving on with my life; I’m not going to communicate with you in any way, shape or form, anymore. Fuck you, and have a good life.”
She’s painted herself as this frail victim, when she used to relish telling me stories of how she would get revenge on her ex-partners, usually by cheating on them with someone they would absolutely be jealous and resent of or a close friend or family member. She’d already alienated me from the latter, soo…yeah. Likewise, she told me of the many times she got other guys to kick the shit out of some other guy who’d done something to displease her…it was like she was bragging…and it frightened me, to be perfectly honest, because she also casually implied that she was not-so tangentially connected to at least one “disappeared” person; perhaps two, back in her college days in Texas.
I tried to warn the DPJ going in, at the very beginning how manipulative she could be, and that she would try to sabotage my relationship with my children.
And so, the DPJ collaborated with her, and sabotaged me. And I’ll shortly be going to youth court for another shaming, where I will have absolutely nothing to say, because in their own filing they actively dehumanize me for having behavioral issues and poison the judiciary by telling them that I said “Fuck you, the DPJ, and Judge DiPinocchio, too!” (I think I explained in a previous post how I have name anmnesia. So that’s not their “honor’s” real name, obviously.)
You know what? I did say it. You know why? Because M.S. and H.S. (no relation) were just too pleased with themselves when they told me they were keeping me from seeing my children under the terms of the previous judgement, and I would not see my children even after the last two years of hard work that I have done to change the person I am, and that they would be recommending to their “honor” that my ex-wife retain sole custody, effectively cutting me off until my children are old enough to seek me out themselves.
The earliest I could hope to see them would be in the last months of my 59th year; once the twins turn 18. I will be in my 60s by the time I can even hope to have a normal relationship with any of my children.
I am going to be an old man before I see my children, again…if I ever live to see them at all. I already live an isolated life, because before I gained lucidity and clarity, I was a traumatized, angry, and sometimes cruel person. But…it takes two to tango.
So why are they so shocked that I behave so monstrously, when they are the ones who made me into a monster? -
The DPJ Took My Babies Away Part One: Past Is Prologue
Quebec’s DPJ: Direction de la protection de la Jeunesse.
My sworn enemies, blood curse laid upon them all. So, how did it happen?
The DPJ took my babies away
They took them away
Away from me
The DPJ took my babies away
They took them away
Away from me
And that’s as funny as I’m going to be able to be.
The prologue first requires backstory:
During our marriage, my wife and I were mutually hostile. But her behavior, I only realized when I’d broken free of her when we separated, had been especially abusive towards me.
I don’t know when it got really bad, exactly; but I remember from the beginning, everything she did she expected praise and thanks for, while everything I did was just what was expected of me. The first time I had a book published, she showed all the enthusiasm as a reptile on a particularly warm rock. And yet, any successful project of hers that I didn’t have unbridled enthusiasm for would result in either a demeaning verbal barrage or a crying jag that made me feel like a monster from the manipulation.
From the time we were married she started by isolating me from my friends; I couldn’t go visit them in other towns because “there wasn’t any money.” She and her friends were allowed to go out every weekend – well, not allowed; I had no say in the matter. She’d go on road-trips with her friends, spending hundreds of dollars, just to follow their favorite band on tour. But God forbid I buy a toy or game or Nifty Thing I liked without permission; there’d be hell to pay.
She policed what I ate but shut me down if I ever tried doing the same…she’d verbally assault me until I was in an emotional meltdown, and then blame me if I lashed out by shouting at her or punching or striking inanimate objects.
I NEVER raised a hand or made a threat against her. The same cannot be said of her. She’d even punch me – not little slaps or playful smacks, full on punches – in the arm, the back of the head, sometimes kick…anytime she was angry enough or suddenly triggered by something I said – especially if I made a joke, or shared a laugh with her family – who roasted everyone constantly – at her expense. She monitored my socials, and my phone calls with friends. I used to go writing every weekend. After my darling wife put a ring on it I went down to once every two weeks, to once a month, if I was lucky, after arguing about it. She’d gaslight me by saying there was never any money for anything…but her needs were always met. She’d belittle me constantly, convincing me I was oafish, clumsy and incompetent – and yet she was always having me do shit around the house while she stood there and watched. And yes; I had a temper issue, and I would raise my voice easily. But when she started learning how to trigger my temper, she learned how to use it to whiplash me into guilt by immediately saying how mean I was. Yet I would have to sit/stand silently whenever she decided to spend twenty minutes to an hour berating me at full volume.
I don’t remember when, exactly it was I started smoking pot again, but it was mainly to cope with how lonely she made me feel, how upset she could make me. It gave me something that was mine, and gave me a sense of well-being, for hours after I’d smoked.
But it was well after she’d already started treating me like an employee instead of a partner.
I remember there were only two phrases that were extremely rare to hear from her: “Please,” and “I love you.”
She said she showed love by what she did. But what she did was all in expectation of constant praise and adulation.
That’s not only narcissistic and cruel, it’s fucking exhausting.
At some point, maybe because of my “low class” upbringing, the fact that there wasn’t anyone wealthy in my family who was open to direct nepotism (and in spite of the fact her family had built generational wealth THROUGH nepotism – for everyone but her [now I understand better why.]) or the fact that she had to work and couldn’t just stay home and take care of the house (She had Tradwife fantasies before they were cool) like she wanted to.
I was expected to do anything. And when I rebelled, we had Troubles.
Things were better after Obi-Wan was born, but they never really got anywhere near good. And just before the Twins were born, I was arrested for posting a very volatile political message on social media.
After that, my wife couldn’t get rid of me fast enough.
Originally, she wanted me to have my own place, but come to hers to see the kids, seven days a week; after work immediately during the weekdays until the kids went to bed. and from dawn to dusk the weekends.
I would have loved to be able to do that, but…I wasn’t eating supper there; I would have to come home from work, scarf a quick meal and then go over. By the time I’d get home it would be so late I couldn’t properly unwind before going to bed.
That schedule also left me no room to buy groceries or do housework or laundry; I had to ARGUE to have Sunday free to, not rest and relax (despite being chronically exhausted from undiagnosed hemorrhagic anemia,) but to RUN ERRANDS FOR THE COMING WEEK AND TAKE CARE OF ALL ACCUMULATED HOUSEHOLD CHORES before collapsing for as much rest as I could get before work the next day.
Once we’d established the six-day schedule, if anything would happen, even once, to inconvenience on a weeknight, say I had to work late, or got sick, discovered that my apartment building was being fumigated for bedbugs, I’d lose the “privilege” of seeing the kids that day.
Then, she would arbitrarily and almost randomly keep pruning my time with the kids, until I only saw them weekends.
Likewise, she made sure to schedule any special events with her family so that they’d fall on MY weekends with the kids. And I’m not talking about Oh, X’s birthday is this weekend; I’m talking X did/got/accomplished Y, so I scheduled a surprise party for your weekend.
She would hurt me, punish me, after we were separated, by taking away my time with the kids. I wonder if she realized how much more she was hurting our children by doing that.
At some point when I was still seeing them on weekends until she decided to make it every OTHER weekend.
Every time I lost more time with my children, it was because she decided I’d done something to deserve it.
And then, in 2021, because my wife went on vacation and left the kids with her mother, like a normal, responsible single parent, someone in her family called the DPJ and told them that she had abandoned the kids for two weeks, and that they lived in squalor; two easily disproven lies. Sometimes I wonder if she didn’t call the report in on herself, just so she could get the DPJ to target me. Given what they put me through, I would not be surprised.
So of course after the report was made, the DPJ investigated her, even questioning me about her. Despite the fact that I was open with them and vehemently defended her as a good mother (as abusive as she was toward me, she is one of the most loving, most nurturing, deserving mothers I’ve ever met,) once they cleared her of any wrongdoing, they decided to start finding fault with me.
While waiting for the Access to Information Commission to get back to me about accessing my DPJ file (Which I know has incriminating communications between social workers and my ex wife conspiring against me,) I have taken the time to carefully curate my emails going back to 2021 into an organized series, and filtered the emails according to topic and type of attack on my person, and my dignity as a Human Being.
Now that we’ve the Prologue out of the way, starting with my next post I will be detailing how the DPJ began to actively sabotage my rights and dignity as a father, as a man, and as a Human Being.
In coming posts, I will discuss how they attempted to sabotage or sabotaged outings I tried to have with my kids; how they worked to alienate me from my children; I’ll talk in detail about how they tried to coach my daughter into saying I’d sexually abused her, when, it should go without saying, I would never do any such thing; in coming posts I’ll talk about how they selectively edited every interview or session I had with them, even my family court testimony, and how even the judges of family court in Quebec are biased.
And because I’m not naming names, there’s not a goddamned thing they can do about it.
I’m documenting this because I will take this to the Human Rights Commission, the media and beyond if I have to; because these arrogant cunts have stolen my children from me, stolen the last years of their childhood from me, and kept me from them for so long that I don’t know if I’d even recognize them if I saw them again face-to-face.
The next several posts will speak truth to power; I did not start this fight, but I will finish it; one way or another.
I really do wish I was blogging about how to be a successful indie author or even about my forthcoming Author’s Edition of They Came in Peace, but the Direction de protection de la jeunesse du Quebec has so sabotaged me and my life that my self-respect, my sanity will not allow it to go unreported, any longer.
My voice is the only thing they cannot take from me. I will exercise every last measure available to me under the law; and when those avenues are exhausted I will find novel means to continue my struggle.
And this is the only place you’ll be able to read about it!
Until next time, dear readers. -
Three Point Seven Five Times Ten to the Negative Fifth Percent
I usually use this space to talk about my writing, or, as it’s become more relevant to my current situation, my fight with the Direction de protection de la jeunesse du quebec.
As much tea as I have to spill about the scum-fucker cunts that are a complicit cogs in that infernal machine, today I’d like to focus on something more diabolical.
And that, simply expressed, is
eight billion versus three thousand. Or
8 000 000 000 VS 3 000
These numbers are rounded down from the current estimated global population of 8 200 000 000, or eight billion two hundred million (give or take a few million souls,) and the estimated 3021 billionaires on this planet.
You know how we talk about the One Percent?
Have I got some fucking news for you.
One percent of eight billion is eighty million. Eighty million; of them, three thousand of them are billionaires. 80 000 000 VS 3 000.
Now, I’m bad at maths, so thank god for spreadsheeting software.
If you plug the numbers in, three thousand people is 0.00375% of the 1.%
The rest of the 1% have an annual median income of about $60 000 a year. Or, what used to be a middle-class household income in America.
MOST OF THE 1% EARN FAR LESS THAN SIXTY THOUSAND AMERICAN PETRODOLLARS A YEAR. The global median income is around $10 000; On disability benefits, I earn about $12 000 a year. And we ARE the One Percent. That number includes the fifty-eight million (58 000 000) people who earn One Million Dollars a year (1 000 000.) That’s right; there’s a better chance, however slim, of working and honestly earning a million dollars.
We have more in common will millionaires than billionaires, and until trickle-down economics was introduced under Reagan, it was impossible for anyone to earn a billion dollars, and economists said it would be impossible for one person to even spend a billion dollars in their lifetime.
Now, most of these billionaire motherfuckers can drop that kind of paper and make it back in a few months. They don’t hold it in currency, but in assets. Through shell corporations, asset management operations and pure market manipulation, the Billionaire Class ensures that all they’re doing is raking more money from the bottom of the ladder, and redistributing it more laterally around the top.
There’s three thousand of them.
They have engineered this society to keep us at each other’s throats, fighting over scraps. Those scraps aren’t enough for all of is to survive off, and that is by design.
While we’re fighting over resources, race, religion, gender identity, sexual orientation, sports teams, media franchises, favorite colors and other identity politics, they are laughing and collecting more and more money by the second, by squeezing the other eight billion of us for every motherfucking thing that we are worth.
There’s three thousand (3 000) of them, distributed across seventy-eight (78) countries.
There’s eight billion (8 000 000 000) of us, in one hundred and ninety five (195) countries.
Do the fucking math; does the name Custer mean anything to anyone? -
I am HAPPY AND CELEBRATING that Charlie Kirk is dead.
Do NOT tell me not to celebrate Charlie Kirk’s death.
He was an Islamophobe; how many acts of anti-Islamic violence happened because of him?
He was a rabid queerphobe – with a particular hatred of the Trans community; how many 2SLGBTQIA+ were harassed or attacked because of him?
How many Queer kids killed themselves because of him?
He hated immigrants; now ICE, Trump’s Gestapo, hunts down people of color.
He was a white supremacist; how much white on black violence did he incite?
HE SAID THAT IF HIS 10 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER WAS RAPED HE WOULD FORCE HER TO CARRY THE CHILD TO TERM.
Do NOT tell me not to celebrate Charlie Kirk’s death. -
The Slow War: Access to Information Acts, Reactions and Actions
One month ago today, I sent a request for information to the DPJ, Quebec’s monolithic Youth Protection bureaucratic machine, to their Access to Information Request email address. Gmail was able to confirm they received the email. It’s amazing how much data is available to you, if you know how to look.
They had 20 business days to reply, either giving me a copy of my file, or giving me some bullshit excuse as to why they “couldn’t” supply me with a copy. I expected the latter not the former.
The DPJ, as always, did not fail to surprise:
They elected not to reply at all.
Yesterday, the 25th of August, was their legally-mandated deadline to respond. So today, I sent a request via email to the appeals board, the “Tribunal Administratif” as they like to call it in this little province of Quebec.
If they manage to fuck me over there, I’ll take them to the Human Rights Commission. If that doesn’t work, I’ll fucking sue them, if I fucking have to.
If that doesn’t work, well…nothing’s off the table.
I asked for access to my file with the DPJ, because as I said in a previous post, I intend to blow the lid off the culture of malfeasance and bad faith that rules the Direction de Protection de Jeunesse, and the vile cockroaches who pretend to be social workers while running it.
Why? As mentioned in a previous post, the Montreal Comiccon fiasco. For another, the time my daughter, while visiting me, asked why M, the social worker at the time, was asking her if I had ever inappropriately touched her. Leia was was afraid, because she knew they were trying to get either her or me into trouble. I tried to reassure her it was SOP, but she told me that neither of her siblings had been asked any similar questions. It should go without saying but I will say it nonetheless: I would never and have never been inappropriate with any of my children in any way.
I cannot communicate the level of disgust I felt when I heard what M had to say, when I called her on it. It boils my blood more than two years later, just thinking about it.
They say I traumatized my children because of my “unreliable” behavior; I ask how much more trauma have several different social workers caused my children in their attempts to alienate them from me? Including one who had me arrested after triggering me into a nervous breakdown, and another who suggested to my ex-wife that she use her texts with me to alienate my children from me.
This entire time, the only goal the DPJ has, has been the destruction of me as a father to my children. They’ve robbed me of the last years of their childhood; my kids are young adults now, and I don’t even know what they look like, because they’ve grown up so much in the last few years.
They say I traumatized my children because of my “unreliable” behavior: I have constant moderate to severe back pain because of a lower back injury suffered when I was a kid. Subsequent to that injury I developed arthrosciatic pain. I have also suffered with irritable bowel and acid reflux since my twenties; this has given rise to Cyclical Vomiting Syndrome in my fifties. I can start my day fine, then out of nowhere and for no good goddamn reason I will become violently ill. I also live with anxiety and depression.
The DPJ WEAPONIZED my disabilities in order to paint me as “unreliable” and “unstable;” despite them being the reason I had a mental breakdown.
Oh, yes, I got into psychiatric care after years of searching for it; oh, absolutely, I’m a new man today for what I went through.
But it is also true that despite even being cleared by the courts of the crime of rage-texting the social worker who drove me into a nervous breakdown and despite meeting every goal the DPJ set for me, instead of seeing my children, they just kept moving the goalposts; they pushed me into this, and they pushed me too fucking far one too many times.
I’ve cursed their souls with the righteousness of the wronged, the oppresed, and the persecuted; for they violated my fatherhood, and my life.
I will never forgive them for it, because I cannot forgive the injuries I’ve suffered and continue to suffer because of them.
But right now, I think I need to take a nap.
If you are a victim of this or any other monolith of bureaucratic authority and qualified immunity, don’t lay down; get up, stand up and fight. Fight as hard as you can, with every tool at your disposal.
…and when or if you run out of legal measures, welcome to the Resistance.
We are Legion, because we are many. -
I can only be experienced forward, but I can only be understood backward. What am I?
I know this blog has no readership, which means I’m screaming into the void. I’m not on any social media anymore, I have no public presence, and I am a non-person, now. They took me away from my children. I have no family, no friends, no loved ones…no connections. I have nothing left to even hope for. And I’m so tired of being alone.
Why the fuck am I even here?
steve@karmazenuk.com